Passionately Projecting My Position

Morning Commute

2011-10-12T05:33:00.000-07:00

If the children who make their way to classrooms across this city are our future then I'm currently considering jumping off a cliff. Was I like this when I was in highschool? These children make me want to sell my uterus on EBay.

Valentine's Day

2011-02-13T08:57:00.000-08:00

I've recently relocated to a city in the Mid West. I literally left everything in a matter of days for a great opporunity to reinvent myself. So far so good. In the midst of this transition i've had to leave behind everything including my Valentine.

If my princess was here I would make her breakfast in bed. On the menu would be chicken and red velvet waffles.

In stead of doing that tomorrow i'll just send her a million text messages, emails, and make several phone calls to tell her what a special place she has in my life.

The Universe

2011-02-09T18:27:00.000-08:00

Sometimes you have to just put it in the universe and leave it there. I put some things out there and i'm patiently waiting on the return.

I'll keep you posted...

SN: I've been thinking about blogging again. Maybe i'll return to this space...

Born on Thursday

2010-09-05T09:40:00.000-07:00

He told me that he and his wife just celebrated the birth of his daugher on Thursday.
He was born on Thursday.
Somewhere between today and Thursday my fantasy died.

You're Always on My Mind

2010-09-04T18:13:00.000-07:00

I havent blogged in a gang of Sundays. I miss this place. I miss hearing my voice in this spot.

I was cleaning out my email folders the other day and I came across an email from 2 years ago. I saved it because I wanted to remember who I was and how far I had come. When I opened it I got physically ill. I was at work and I couldn't run anywhere. I had to face what the email said. I tried to read it in its entirety but I couldn't. I wasn't a coward. I just realized I had come so far and I didn't want to go back.

I wanna raise my glass to the struggle! I appreciate it and what it did for me!

I'm not Impressed

2009-05-23T22:38:00.000-07:00

A few weeks ago I was driving to work and I heard Darryl Strawberry talking about his new book. Tom and the crew asked several questions about his addiction, baseball, and his future. At the end he plugged his book and said that he had been clean for 3 years. Tom and company congratulated him before he went to his commercial break.

In the late 80s and early 90s I was a HUGE baseball fan. During that time if you liked baseball then you LOVED Darryl Strawberry. He like so many athletes let their fans down by their ignorant behavior off the field.

I'm glad that he's "got his life together" after so many failed attempts. What annoyed me to no end was that Tom, Sybil, and J congratulated him for being clean for 3 years. Fcuk that! I've been clean my entire life and no one ever congratulated me! Why is everyone excited about Darryl doing what you're supposed to do? That's like congratulating a father for being a father. Darryl get over yourself! I have no sympathy for you!

The only thing that separates me from a crackhead is that I said no.

Club Crazies

2009-04-21T08:50:00.000-07:00

I thought that if you hung out in a club you should only frolic in VIP. And that's what I did this past weekend. I put on my finest threads, did my make up, and found a comfy spot on the white couch. On my way to check my makeup I met this youngun' named Joel (f*%k changing his name).

Joel and I exchange pleasentries but half way through the conversation he says something out of pocket. I quickly explain that boo boo I have a real job and this is Armani (well only Armani Exchange...but he didn't know that)I'm wearing and not Forever 21. He quickly apologizes and explains that he's trying to break into the movie business and he is a senior @ the local college. I give him my number and head back to the Goose (I prefer Ketel but what can you do).

That night he sends me a text and I respond the following morning.

Let me back track for a second...I have tried to date younger guys in the past but they tend to give me a headache because these little girls they deal with don't have standards. Which means that going to Fridays is an acceptable first date...NO!

Last night I forgot to turn off my phone and this morning I wake up to a text from Joel. The time stamp said 3:47. It read "whassup? I'm trying to see you tonight". Motherfucker have you lost your motherfucking mind? 3:47?! *sigh* These children are not the business!

After I brushed my teeth I deleted his number and vowed to not give out my number to anyone under 30 again.

A Good Memory

2009-03-25T03:38:00.000-07:00

I wanted to share my pleasant memory of my father. Those memories are few and far in between so when I have one I want to blog about them so I can remember them.

I had to be about 4 or 5 and my teacher asked each student to bring in one of their father's old shirts to serve as your painting smock. It's funny how times change because i'm sure a teacher would not ask her class to bring in their father's shirt now because most kids don't live at home with daddy dearest.

Long story short my daddy gave me one of his brown t-shirts to use as a smock to create my masterpieces.

Over 20+ years later as I sat on the sofa I could literally smell the paint. I could feel it on my hands. I'm sure my parents don't have any of my early works or even remember me coming home with tales of how me and my bff helped each other create works of art.

This memory really doesn't have anything to do with my father. It has to do with something that he owned. But it's still a good memory and I want to focus on that. A good memory.

A Mental Block

2009-03-06T06:30:00.000-08:00

I'm having writer's block. I started 3 different posts and deleted them all. What's the problem? I don't know. All I know is that this used to be so much easier.

For old times, how about a list?
-I'm in the process of assembling an all star crew. This may sound strange but the starting line up had to be revamped.
-I'm working on a project for my someone special.
-I missed the blog world. Did you guys miss me?
-The first few posts are always the hardest!
-I've become a better person, friend, and girlfriend in my absence from the blogspot.
- I sometimes listen to this playlist at work because it's amazing! It has 80s hits, great R&B, hip that i'm feeling, sprinkled in with a few white folks songs ( I ain't gon' lie I jam to a few of them).
-I've been practicing the blank stare for a while and I think i've perfected it.

Maybe i'll get my mojo back...

My Return?

2009-03-02T09:16:00.001-08:00

I spoke with HH yesterday (Harvard Homey)and she encouraged me to blog again. Honestly, my heart hasn't been in it. We all know why. My first and only post was not well written, thought out, or gramatically correct. It was what it was.

I deleted my old blog. I really miss it. It saddens me that I can't go into my favorites folder and click on it. But that's life. Things happen. You roll with it.

I promise i'll be back.

Remind...

2008-10-14T12:06:00.000-07:00

"Remind these bitches to mind their business..."
This is my reintroduction to the blog world. I have to remind these bitches to mind their business cuz the pimp game is very religious. I'm not a pimp. I'm something like a pimp...I have morals. Understand this: My daddy is a pimp. My mother raised me therefore i'm a pimp by blood not relation. My mother raised me so I have morals. Understand that if I had spent my adolesence with him I would have been a beast. Fortunately my mother raised me.

This space will be a place where i'm going to talk a lot of shit. I'm going to tell you what I was thinking while on the elyptical @ the gym where i'm 1 of 4 black members. I'm going to talk about ALL of the reality shows that I watch. I'm going to just do me.

If you dont like what I have to say click on that little X in the top right hand corner and leave my space.

This post serves as my reintroduction!

That is all!